daddiie___//mummiie </33

ha! now ii noe how lyiife iis shoo borinqq when dhere iis nth out dhere for me tuh do andd thiinkk. wake up at 9am as mummy down dhere vacuum the floor. vesak day, parents nvr go work.

studyy my chemistry awhile dhen recieve call from guowei. bathe andd went out tuh meet he and his friend -xiao les and xiao les's girlfriend- jingling. went down tuh Aljunied takinqq cabby.. reachh dhere arndd 1pm plus. guowei sponsor me for manicure ][how nice][ andd xiao les payy the moneyy for jingling. dhen habb no ideaa wadd the two boys doiinqq liiao. =p

went tuh eat at "the marmalade pantry" locatedd at orchard. ii hadd salmon teriyaki for lunchh andd a piece of NY cheesecake, gosh- iit was delicious. but ii diin reli enjoy the salmon teriyaki. mayybe bcuz ii dun like seafood.=P guowei orderedd the ice cream wiith chocolate derh cakiie. hmm. sweet! as ii took a biite of hiis dessert. hees.

went tuh vivo city andd walk arndd. bought a box of donuts. intend tuh buy for sisterr, but stupiid guo weii and xiao les go eat my donuts. at last finish liiao. haiyoyoyo.. realisedd ii diin spendd muchh of my moneyy, iit was guowei payiinqq.haahaa. ii onlyy spendd moneyy on my 6 donuts andd transport fee. guowei sayy wanna go for drivingg lesson maybe nxt month or wadd. all the best tuh hiim.

took mrt back and reach home arndd 9 plus. now doing blogging before bathinqq. hees. so tiredd. tmr goiing for the get high concert!! andd cousins coming..yeapiie.

godma going tuh china todayy at 1am flight. dunnoe wan go airport sendd her not. =p hearrd sisterr sayy we going zoo this sundayy.. oh my gosh, dunn ever dragg me tuh dhat kind of place. saturdayy going for filming for "turning U" show. okkayy. shall stop here andd uploadd my fotos. =)

well, tmr iis the dayy where ii am getting an answerr from him. =)

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myy naiils.simplyy adore iit.

new york cheesecake andd the ice-cream wiith chocolate cake. delicious

salmon teriyaki.

myy 6 donuts!! no more lerhh.

ii enjoyy myy day. thnks guys. love all of yoo. no matter wadd, ii promise yoo all, wadeva the answerr ii goiing tuh be tmr, ii will still habb my smile on. yoo guys ROX!!

took yesterdayy

keith office place. niice riite?? hees. andd the toilet paintingg. cool uhs?

boredness.

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
1:37 PM

went tuh blk 614 derhh house dhere andd peel onions. 1kg of onions lehh.. meii andd ii at there peel, dhen meii sayy eyes veryy paiin,dunnwann peel liiao. the juice of the onions oso got get into my eyes lurhh, but i still continue peel. fine anyyway, managedd tuh finish peeling by 9am. dhen wash the dumpling leaves. wash halfway went tuhh bath cuz goingg out to fiindd keith tuh take the schedule at oxley road dhere.

iin the mrt, damn tiredd. cuz ytrd slp arnd 2am. dunnoe whyy cannot sleep.insomnia??. when cannot slp dhat tyiime, playy games andd listen musics, buddhen still cannot sleep. haiishh..

reachh dhere arndd 12pm. keith was havinqq meetinqq, therefore waiit awhile. there was this gurl-baojun, she was pretty,ii love herr. she may look unkindd??, but iin fact she was friendlier thann wad ii thot.=) went tuh makan at a nearby coffee shop. the coffee shop was crowded andd dirtyy. reli dirtyy. they gotten seats near the washing place there. damn disgusting. how do you expect a person to enjoy a happy lunch at this kind of environment???!! gosh.. nvr eat.. see all those flies flyinqq arndd, no appetite liiao. keith bought drinks for us. how nice of hiim.=) thnks keith.

went back to their office andd took the schedule andd went tuh take cabbyy tuh city hall mrt. ii dunnwanna waiit for the bus liiao cuz ii am reli reli tiiredd. took traiin backk tuh woodlands and went tuh popular tuh buy book references for chemistry andd biology, went tuh metro to buyy nail polish also.=) andd also bought my favourite hersheys. heehee.

went backk home, browse thru the books ii bought andd fiind iit was relii useful. iit explains the answers andd the concept. ii love iit. =)

went tuh take a nap andd wake up. saw got 1 witheld numberr, first thot was shahrul. but ii thot, shldn't be hiim. he won't call me derh. so ii call tuh jun cai-he say no. call to hweefang-she say no. left hiim that has private numberr, dhen ii call hiim- he sayy: hello who are you?which school? dhen nvrr answerr my question. dhen he ask me bout the 1st june. haiis. gladd that he still rmb,, does he wanna patch back? iif by 1st june he is not givinqq me an answer, ii would be taking it as a no, ii dun wan patch backk.. iit iis pointless for me waitingg, iif he dunn wanna patchh backk, ii just want tuh concentrate on myy studiies, dunn wann go into anotherr relationshiip.

guowei come andd ask for steadd.. so malu. ii dunnoe how tuh reject hiim sheyy... ii dhen sayy giime more tyiime, not preparedd. dhen he like shy shy,, follow me go buy bubble tea. so sweet of hiim.=P guowei iis reli nice,, he understandds me, but now ii just waitinqq for 1st june for hiis answer.

tata.

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
8:31 PM

holiidayy liiao, lyiife iis damn borinqq,,.. at home studyy studyy andd books are slowlyy freakinqq me out. went online searchiinqqs for things on laws.. wahh!! diin noe that there is so manny laws in sinagpore, andd eachh law came underr different categories.. poor lawyers habb tuh rememberr those laws, hees. but doctorr iis what ii wantedd tuh be, but ii noe iit is impossible, cuz ii dun even studyy. myy miid-yr results was damn horrible, ii oso nvrr thot ii would get that kindd of marks. i am so stupid. mum even sayy, might as well quit school, dun studyy.. haiis, ii feel so hopeless when mummy sayy that. ='(

morning go wet market withh granny. ii sit outside the wet market derh kopitiam. dhen ii saw hazel wiith herr friends. sat down andd talkk awhiile andd they hadd tuh leave, iit has been a longg tyiime ii ever see her. she grown taller, taller than me!! granny came out of the market andd ii help her carry the stuffs.

went home eat cheesecake.. the cheesecake is expensiive derh okkay?? 1 fine piece cost $5.20.. but not ii payy derhh.. dunnoe where mummyy bought from.. cheesecake are the same lurhh.

do myy biology homeworkk and engliishh.. tmrr going tuh buy assessment books tuh do. otherwise ii am slacking behindd otherrs le. JIAYOU RACHEL..!!!

went off tuh napp at 2pm-5pm. guowei come tuh myy house andd wake me up. cuz he wanna lendd dvd shows from me. diiao...dhen wake up, granny cookinq curry.. nice, granny ask guowei tuh stayy andd eat..guess wad??!! he iin myy room snorinqq and waiting for dinner tuh be served. PIG!

ii dunnoe iif ii shldd get in tuh anotherr relatiionshiip, when the one ii truly love iis treatinqq me liike a fool...

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
6:29 PM

There are times when I cant decide
whether to see you or not,
I want to see you because I miss you
but there are times when I dont want to see you
because everytime I do,
the fact that you dont see me the way
that I see you hurts me even more ...

The weirdest thing happened the other morning...
I woke up with tears in my eyes...
and one rolling down my cheek...
and I knew I must have been dreaming of you again.

I'm not supposed to love you,
I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there,
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do,
I'm sorry I can't help myself,
I'm in love with you.

You're not worth the tears,
you're not worth the heartache.
I don't know why I give you the time.
You're not worth the pain,
you're not worth the emptiness.
I don't know why I wish you were mine.

I'm sorry for crying over you,
because I said I wouldn't.
But I didn't promise you that,
because I knew it would be a promise
I would never be able to keep.

It takes a couple seconds to say Hello,

but forever to say Goodbye.

Nothing hurts more than realising he meant
everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.

Love is a precious gift that people
try to hold onto until the end of time,
even when there is nothing left to hold.

Love starts with a smile,
Grows with a kiss,
and ends with a tear.

Somtimes we have to let go,
just to be sure that there is something
there worth holding on to.

I don’t believe in love because I still don’t have you!

If dreaming is the only way to be with you,
then I'll never open my eyes.

They asked me if I kissed you.
I told them yes.
They asked if I regretted it.
I told them no.
They asked me if I regretted falling for you.
I told them no.
They asked me how I could have ever liked you.
I replied:
I don't regret any of my feelings
or things I did with him,
because when I look at him I see something
different than what everyone else can see.
When I'm with him,
I feel a feeling that no one or
being anywhere else can give me.
When I kissed him,
my world around me melted.
When he held me in his arms
and rested his head on mine,
I forgot everything but my world
that was holding me.
Even though all of you may see
something in him that is so horrible,
all I see is all the positive,
and special moments that
he ever shared with me...
The only thing that I regret
is listening to everyone else,
because if I had listened to my heart,
I would still have him by my side.

I'm not supposed to love you
I'm not supposed to care
I'm not supposed to live my life
Wishing you were there
I'm not supposed to wonder
Where you are or what you do
I'm sorry, I can't help myself
cause I'm in love with you!

No one realizes the beauty of love, until you lose it.

My friends are always telling
me to move on, to give up.
But why? Why should I?
They don't see you the way that I see you.
They don't look into your eyes and see the world.
Why would they understand?
They can't possibly imagine what
it means to look at your best friend
and see all their hopes and dreams come true.
I wish for once, just once,
they could walk a mile in my shoes.
But they wouldn't need to walk that far,
they would just take one step and suddenly,
they would take back every bit of
'getting over you' advice they had
ever given me and realize you're my life,
you were meant for me,
and that moving on or giving up is simply not an option.

I'm trying really hard not to cry over you
because every tear is just one
more reminder that I don't know how to let you go.

Should I Smile Because You're My Friend
Or Cry Because Thats All We'll Ever Be?

A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back,
I Know Because I've Tried.
Neither Would A Million Tears,
I Know Because I've Cried.

Forget The Times You Walked By,
Forget The Times You've Made Me Cry,
Forget The Time You Held My Hand,
Forget The Sweet Things If I Can,
I Can No Longer Pretend
, I Have To Remember Now That You're Just A Friend

When I Look At You My Heart Skips
A Beat But Later That Beat Could Mean
A Lifetime Of Tears Wasted
On Something I Knew I Could Never Have

How Can You Be Friends With Someone
If Everytime You Look At Them It Makes
You Want Them Even More?

My Heart Was Taken By You,
Broken By You And Now
Is In Pieces Because Of You

I know in reality we can't be together,
so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me...
in my dreams you're mine forever.

I was reborn when you first kissed me.
Part of me died when you left me.
But now I still live, waiting for the day you return to me.

You are always there for me
and so you give me the courage to stand alone.

The part that hurts me the most,
is knowing that I once had you and then lost you...

pinkk color wordds are the ones tat speakks myy miindd,
blue are the ones that iis occurs tuh me.

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
1:40 PM

morninqq wae up earlyy just tuh go myy blk 614 derhh house. tiredd. cuz going for parent meetingg at 11.15am.. at dhere use the computerr dhenn watchh ch62 derhh moviie- ghost invite you for a movie. the show was superr lame. summore funnyy. watchh iit thrice liiao.

parent meeting, mr heng was late. we went into the meeting room andd mr heng andd mummy talk.. nthh muchh.. so gladd that mr heng nvrr sayy anyythinqq bout shahrul.. keke. thnks, mr heng. aftr the meeting, mum at there nagg nagg nagg at me.. andd she sayy wanna confiscate my handdphone. takke lurhh.. ii onlyy wann to noe the answerr from shahrul by 7th june niia. hees.

he call me andd ask wad's my blk at checkpoint dhere. toldd hiim andd hang up. lil cousin came over. tok cabby home wiith myy lil cousin-yang2. he was gladd cuz cann playy with myy siis. dhen ii call hiim andd ask whyy he ask, dhen he sayy he at hiis fren house. LOL..

do a maths homeworkk andd went tuh buy bubble tea wiith meii, yang2 andd guo wei. haahaa.. all alongg was funny and totallyy crapps. joke arndd and make the bubble tea auntiie frownn. meii go andd ask guowei whyy the bubble tea ladyy wearr till so nice when they onlyy come for work. dhen guo wei di siao siao go ask the ladyy.. the ladyy just keep quiet,. andd dhen he sayy loud loud:hiiao ma.~! wahh.. ii can't stop laughing lurhh.. guo wei sendd us home andd he went back. ii continue tuh do my homeworkk andd blogg.

wanna go slp liiao. tiredd. wake up so earlyy todayy. hees.. =p

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
3:48 PM

took iin 161 bus.. ziiliian. =p

ii relii love yoo all byy myy harrt. but seems liike yoo are fooliingg my love to yoo.. iif yoo don't love me, tell me. don't take my love for grantedd.

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
7:46 PM

mummyy went tuh msiia liiao,. dhenn leave me here iin singaporre. siian, she liied tuh me. cuz she sayy bringing me andd herman ][ dunno who?? mum sayy iis her friend's son][ tuh msiia so askk me come home before 5pm. andd dhen she dua me. when ii call her telling herr my ez-link lost, the line was msia. ii totally shock. knn.. nvr tell me she go msia liiao.FUCK.**

ealryy morning, mummy down dhere asking meii wanna jogg wiith herr. walao.. ii at there slpingg, and the volume of hers so irritating.. in the end i wake up. look at the clock, cheyy - 7.30am niia,. went backk slp till 9.30am liidat,.. by the time ii woke up, mummy went tuh kranji wiith daddyy..

bathe andd went out to meet kiinon. reachh causewayy at 10am. supposed tuh meet hiim at 10.30am, but was dhere earlyy.. waiit~~~ the weatherr was damn hot.. dhen he came, sweatingg. walk all the wayy from cwp tuh his blk. waiit for hiim tuh take things, dhen change clothes dhen wait for hiis sisterr. herr sisterr quiite chiio, summore skinnyy skinnyy derhh lurhh.. went tuh woodlands centre dhere..

at woodlands centre, we went up to the hawkerr centre bcuz he wanna buy something tuh drinkk. folo hiim up, dhere was this indian guy, dunnoe wadd happen, fall onto the fall on his headd and the floor liike shakingg liidat.. kinon sayy the indian retarded derhh.. askk me faster go,..

went tuh sengkang wiith hiim... went into the libraryy and stayy dhere awhiile,,, hiis 2 frens came... kiinon went tuh cut hiis haiir, dhen hiis frens andd ii went out andd theyy smoke downn dhere. offerredd me, but ii rejectedd.. quit smokkinqq bcuzz of hiim. =p some more ii am not a heavy smoker.

dhen they went arcade andd went KFC eat,.. ii siian siian downn dhere.. kiinon dhen sendd me backk tuh the bus stop... he noes ii am boredd, so he askked me go first... went backk woodlands andd meet hiim.. thot he alone, but there was peishan. folo by hussein. shagg.. ii at there dunoe whether go home better or stayy.?? iin the endd ii stayyed. ii at there liike a mute, nvrr talk. stare at things onlyy. shahrul keep askinqq me whyy andd ii just shook myy headd. the reason iis ii just wanna talk tuh hiim alone, but not wiith otherr ppl oso. he just can't get myy miind/iidea.. theyy went tuh admiralty dhere andd buy bubble tea.. ii wen tuh the toilet telling myslef: " yoo standd dhere andd watch like a idiot, might as well go home andd slp. standd dhere liike statue.. he doesn't even care. but tuh play and play.. dun even noe he still likes me not" dunnoe whyy, dhen ii startedd cryingg, toldd hiim tuh go fiirst, ii am goingg home. he sayy dunwann, andd askked me come out. well, see them play bball. ii did not wann tuh joiin iin as ii dunnoe how tuh playy.. stupiid. see them playy ii oso laughh. iit was funnyy.

went ackk tuh the RC andd sat down dhere. he andd hiis frens. ii nth tuh do. iin the endd he hadd tuh go playy soccerr andd ii went backk home. took cabby home. ii smsedd hiim sayiing that ii shldn't have cling onto hiim so tightly. iit iis hard for hiim and me. well, if he dun like me, dunn treatt me that good yars? makingg me getting wrong ideas. in the first place ii saiid breakk andd ii just turnn backk tuh hiim agaiin.. ii shldn't have done that..

now all ii wantedd iis hiim tuh noe tat ii relii love hiim... but he seems not tuh understandd andd care. whyy??!! iif he doesn't wanna turn backk by 7 of june, ii totally giive up lerhh.. not ii breakk my promise. but just dunnwanna waiit anyymore.. dunn wann tuh findd a new one== LYIFE SUX! LOVE SUX! ][ onlyy when he come backks, love rox][

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
6:03 PM

siiann.. wake upp at 1pm byy juncaii.. hmpff. dhen do some homeworkk andd dhen went out..

came home quiite earlyy andd slept for anotherr 3hrs. use the computerr andd dunnoe wann tuh doo wadd. siian. hols liiao, lyiffe becomes deadd..can't get tuh see hiim oftenn liiao. sadd. but oso hope that holidayys are forever. =p

fon bills dunnoe whyy keep going up up up.. switchh off the fon so that ii wun sms.. lame horr?? buddhen iis good lurh.. =p went tuh exercise wiith meii andd mummyy. playy badmintonn andd do runningg. whole handd cramps. come home, hold a cup of water oso will tremble. poor thiing. =x

tmr must wake up quite earlyy as meetingg kiinon.. tutorr hiim on hiis studiies... but must go home earlyy. must reachh home by 5pm... goingg ang mo kio wiith herman andd mummyy. shagg. kkayys, late lerhh,,

pushh mysleff off tuh the bedd and dream.][better iis hiim dhen tmrr ii can dun wake upp liiao][ heehee.

wanna love yoo. but iit seems liike yoo are making me hopeless. whyy can't yoo gimme one more chance tuh love yoo. are we fatedd tuh be tuhgetherr? or everything iis just part of lyiife?

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
10:14 PM

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niice horr?? hees. hope iit will come true. but ii noe iit iis more tuh the wordd : IMPOSSIBLE.. as wadd he hadd toldd me.

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
11:52 AM

todayy go skool iin a superr happyy mood. bcuzz of hiim andd last dayy of schh.. morninqq assemble hear the principle talk talk talk.. the sunn veryy biig, ii siit dhere liike one melting chocolate. bastardd. dhen those kena caught ones must do publiic apologies. but dheyy talk ii oso happyy larhh. cuz nvrr bring anyy readiinqq materiial.. =x

dhen go class hear teacher talk. not getting our report books backk. gettinqq backk durinqq parent meeting onlyy. recess, assemble at hall andd hear mr justin talkk bout what not to do durinqq june hols.example - shop liftinqq, riotingg andd blahh blahh, went home carryiinqq manyy bks. alorrt of homeworkk..!!!

went home helped mummy awhile andd went tuh meet shahrul dhen go yio chu kang to findd hwee fang to take the concert tickets. when talking tuh shahrul, iit was happy but angryy as he was quiet all the wayy. he asked what iif he asked for patchh.. ii thiink ii saw hiim cryingg? or maybe ii see wrongg. dhen ii askedd hiim, are we reli impossible... he sayy: ya. impossible. gosh! whyy is he like giving me hope??!! whyy???!! he doesn't believe that ii waitingg when ii toldd hiim.. sadd. veryy upset. eriic asked for patchh. sayiing that he still loves me.. but all ii love iis shahrul. so ii told eriic that: "sry. ii dun love you. ii still like my malay ex.ii waitinqq for hiim.love her. she may be the one for you." well, ii onlyy love shahrul lurhh.. wadeva iit is, ii waiit. =P he mayy choose not tuh believe.,, ii dunoe wadd he iis thinkingg oso..

took bus home. luckily ii miss the bus. cuzz ii thiink ii saww myy ex- desmond. he iis totally an asshole. wonderr whyy ii andd hiim last tyiime cann so longg. haiis.. suchh a fool me. saww jess and jaslynn at interchange. guess dhey diin saw me, cuz ii was iin the bus liiao..

feel like endingg everything wiith a full stop, but he just can't be erasedd from myy mindd. godd, giive me a chance tuh love hiim cann?? hiis birthdayy comingg liiao.. diid he cry? cryy bcuzz of me??

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
5:00 PM

todayy actually suppose to go to mushroom farm budden dunnoe whyy go to RSAF andd changi chapel... all bout historyy. ewww. =P so sad, elnaa nvrr come schh.. haiisx.

went backk schh andd gorrt the " woodgrove idol".. elnaa did not come so ii helped herr tuh video down the concert. hees. there is this gurl gorrt the first. but dun likke her cuzz she call ppl names. haiis... fat summore.haahaa, but her singing was wonderful.. high pitchh. actually ii shld say: SO??? even iif yoo have a good voice, but your character sux lurhh.look iinto te miirrorr andd see for your size... hees.

went home at 3pm. went tuh sendd the videos to hussein so that elnaa cann see. dhen saw hiim when coming out of the toilet. we act as if nvrr see eachh otherr. but to me, ii feel quiite happy.hees. dunnoe whyy. so went home wiith stalle, and ayuniie. walked backk and saw hiim wiith hussein. but oso act as if nvrr see hiim. whyy secretly loving someone iis so sufferringg??

dhen went home onliine andd he oso gorrt onliine. he talk tuh me asking who iis the 23rd mayy.. seems liike he cares. but actuallyy iit was onlyy ytrdd date.heehee... but happy when he talks tuh me. =P ii keep smilingg tuh myself liike one idiot. mummy oso findd me weiirdd whyy ii so hyper active todayy.. ii gorrt 32 for class position. ii toldd her that actually ii made improvement. cuz actual ranking was ii was in the position of 36 last yr. =P managedd tuh get a smile from mum.haahaa. dhen he startedd tuh askk me some questionns. but just asking myself, are we going tuh get back together, when last tyime he told me it was impossible for us to be tuhgeherr anyymore?
ii askedd bcuz he askked me whether do ii mind his parents comtrolling hiim... err. iis that a hiint?? dhen he sayy wanna meet me. but ii couldn't cuz helpinqq mum... suchh a waste.. saddx.

afterr helpinqq mum went tuh NTUC. actually wanna meet hiim but he sayy he could not. so ii went home afterr that. he actually sayy wanna gimme something, but nvrr get tuh see hiim. so dunnoe wadd- curiious.

thiis sat going for the channel u programme.. hees. quiite happy actuallyy. but not as the "important" role. quiite sadd. but keith askked me to do myy best for this programme so that nxt tyime got anyy show, thay will ask me go.

I JUST WANNA LOVE HIIM AND BE WIITH HIIM. =) if there is a chance, ii wanna giive hiim all myy love.<33

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
5:21 PM

goiing forr auditionn wiith nette. =)

at marina wiith jade.

at marina. wiith dex the mr tootx.

flowerr made byy jessica.=))

the cuttie andd sweetiie when going for dining for the social ettiqutte programme

yuniie andd me. at coleman strt dhere the restaurant

stalle andd me,

ii dreww iit on 23rd may. niice hor??? hees.

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
10:00 PM

LOST WITHOUT YOU

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out
I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you’ve gone I admit that I was wrong
All I know is I’m lost without you I’m not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we’ll never be together and we ended with goodbye don’t know what I’d do ...i’m
Lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I’m lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I’m lost without you

How my ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I’m so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You’re the only thing that’s on my mind
Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I’m not too proud to say
All I know is I’m lost without you I’m not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we’ll never be together and we ended with goodbye don’t know what I’d do ...i’m
Lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I’m lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I’m lost without you

If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can’t stop the tears from running down my face
Oh

All I know is I’m lost without you I’m not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we’ll never be together and we ended with goodbye don’t know what I’d do ...i’m
Lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I’m lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I’m lost without you

a meaningful song which describe what ii am feeling and thinking. =D

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
4:55 PM

he nvr come schh todayy... yaa.. ii admiit. ii am just beinqq observant bout hiis movement. dunno whyy??haahaa.

crystalle oso nvrr come schh. call her she still slpinqq iin Pasir ris.. aiyoyo... todayy was okkayy okkayy lurh. tmr going to the mushroom farm. haahaa. dhen will be no lesson iin schh. yeapiie.

feel like dyingg iin the class. bored to death... during mother tongue lesson no teacher marhhs, dhen everyone stayy iin class. i took some chairs and lie down to SLEEP.. nvr dream of anything. awhile bout 30mins, ii woke up liiao.haahaa.dhen saw chiwawa slpinqq. physics lesson oso no teacher. dunnoe where the cheng go... ii and ayunie went tuh find hiim iin the staff room but he was not dhere. guess that he had forgotten.. stayy iin class till 2.45pm and the bell go off, ayunie and i go out of the class to 4e2 to look for shulin to take the congrats card.

dhen went tuh bubble tea shop to buy bubble tea ][andd that iis of cuz][... went home and mummy cook fried curry noodle which iis reli dryy.. Oh my goshh.. can't reli swallow.=P dhen later going for piano lesson.

keith ytrd call me andd sayy that ii got iin for the channel u audition, but hweefang, jess and lynette din't get iin. keith wantedd me to take the main role, but bcuz of my voice][ii think iis bcuz abit of baby tone][ dhen they sayy ii cannort. so ii take the main role's good friend which is oso from J team derh lurh. dhen ii am oso a patient iin that show. hees.

life iis reli like a show or a movie. you will have to pretend everything. some things can be hidden, some things can't. when iit iis tyiime tuh stop hiddinq, iit will be revealed one dayy.. i believe that myy love, my waiiting will prove everythinq. ii believe iin myselff. =)

ii still wondering shld ii buy a present for shahrul??? haiis,

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
3:51 PM

todayy no lesson. cuz we are having our social ettiqutte lesson by other ppl from outside derh. went to coleman street dhere tu have our table manners done. the appertiizers is the breadd wiith butter and a soup. the soup sux. to me larhh, but some sayy the soup niice. EWWW.

dhen we hadd our main course. the chickenn niice larh, budden the sphagetti so cold andd hardd, taste yuckks. the drink - lemon tea oso no taste derhh... wad kindd of restaurant iis that???!!! BLOODY HELL... =p

last was the dessert-the ice cream wiith a chocolate cake. the ice cream with the chocloate tooping was nice, the cake was quite hardd, but oso quiite nice larhh.. the whole thing ii like was the breadd and ice-cream.

went backk school to continue the debriefting. dhen he came tuh our class tuh pass the teacherr in charge the overseas forms. nvr get tuh see hiim. ='(

he doesn't love me anymore, but ii will still continue tuh love hiim. he saiid he will still treat me as a friend. for me yes, treat me as a friend, ii treat yoo as a friend. but inside myy harrt ii still want to love yoo. =)

aftr schh went for dance. sebastian keep calling us "SENIORS". oh my gosh! we aren't that OLD... please dunn call us seniors. sommemore the iirritatingg thing is that the lidi iis so damn asshole. thiink she veryy biig. actuallyy yoo are just reli small iin the dance club. yoo dun hold anyy position iin the dance, yoo are 1 YEAR YOUNGER than us. RESPECT. the actions yoo give iis not respecting sebastian!!! mind the words yoo say and the actions yoo do.

went tuh the staff room to return radio to the dance teacherrs. dhen got this grp of malayy guys][lower sec][ keep caliing "sheevash".. guyys. yoo all are slow>>. ii andd hiim breakk 1 week liiao. dunn yoo all noe?? pls stop callinqq me that- even thou hear liiao quiite happy bcuz hiis name marhs. but cann yoo all think for hiim?? askk clearlyy next tyiime before yoo all sayy something OUT. goodness..

went home with beeqi, jaslyn,ayunie,crystalle. beeqi went backk and the four of us go buy bubble tea.. hees. went home and started bloggingg.

siian.... why whenever yoo wan tuh see a prsn that much, he won't appear, but when yoo hate a prsn, yoo will often see hiim?????

but for me, when ii want tuh see hiim, he will reli appear.. =) the reason mayybe ii am lookingg for hiim.haahaa. like todayy national anthem, ii did see hiim. HAHAHA... happy sheyy..
he told me that we won't get tuhgether anyymore, butii willing tuh waiit and tuh love hiim all byy myy harrt. he iis worth for me giving all myy love. but sorry tuh sayy: ALL GUYS SUX AND ARE FLIRTS EXCEPT SHEEVASH SHAHRUL. he will owaes be myy best guyy iin myy life. LOVE HIM TUH THE CORE!!!

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
6:08 PM

schoolingg as usual. wake up look at myy house andd iit iis damn cleann. mummy spendd the whole niite doinq housework. dhen me lehs?? hees. slpinqq liike a piig iin myy bedd.

went tuh sch as per normal. playy scissors paper stone with jaslyn, chiwawa, crystalle, yuniie andd alorrt more. cuzz ii thiinkinqq shouldd ii buyy bdayy present for hiim?? as he birhdayy reachinqq. hmmm...

afterr 2nd recess, went back for english. siian lurhh englishh. dhen go hall for wad spellinqq bee. dunno wadd iis that oso.haahaa. a english spelling competition. well, ii heardd that chiuhwa gorrt the 1st runner up. CONGRATZ. diin noe cuz ayuniie, crysatlle and i went to the class room. talk scaryy things.- just to scare ourselves. actually the main reason is goinqq to fiind hiim tuh askk hiim / talk clearly bout somethingg. but iin the endd, ii just realisedd thatt iit was myy problemm whichh ii diid not ask ppl well. MY FAULT.. =XX but ii guess iit was worthwhile, as ii can reli make clear myy feelinqqs for hiim. =P

went iinto 4T2 class dhen diin go for a maths class. askk hiim alorrt of thiinggs but he just nod or just look down.. well, ayuniie sayy ii shoutedd veryy loudd. DID II??? hees. dhen ayuniie oso sayy that some malay ppl oso sayy that the prsn iis just infront of me andd niid tuh shout mehs? OH GOSH.... ii dun liike shoutiinqq, make me feel malu and for hiim oso. but he just simplyy act like a mute or a deaf one. oh boy, saying: ii don't love you ANYMORE so diifficult mehs?? dhen i ask hiim tuh sayy he dunn like me liiao. he dhen keep quiiet. aiyoyoyo. but he sayy that he like me as a friendd andd he doesn't hate me. okayy. ii accept. jus say: don't love me liiao... well, iin the endd he saiid iit. WELL DONE. andd ii feel much more lighterr. ii walk off and he bang hiis legg on the door. haiiyoyo. ii wun do foolishh things. iif ii diie how am ii goiing tuh wait??!!!

thiis is the first tyime ii throw myy fon. ii could norrt bear to. myy fon ii just throw, just feel angryy. he saiid iit. ii okayy wiith iit. but ii still waiit. iif ii diie, how am ii goinqq tuh waiit? he keep sayinqq iit was me who wantedd tuh endd iit, yaa.he was riight. i agree. but told you: REGRETTED!!

leadiinq a new liife. stayiinq single... but ii relii waiit even thou he dun believe. fiine wiith me.. shiqi & jess: ii wiill believe wadd yoo all sayy tuh me :: TIME WILL PROVE EVERYTHING. ii believe iit too.=)

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
3:54 PM

wake up earlyy morninqq tuh go causeway point to meet those TCP ppl. there was shawn, yongming, junhong, marcus, dex, gary, jade, shiying, kaile, shiqi, xianhuan and me. went tuh republic poly tuh film. after filminqq was arndd 12pm. met christopher andd he gave me chocs- kinda brueno. =P

went tuh somerset to orchard andd we hadd our luchh dhere. jade andd ii hadd korean food forr luchh.. okay larhh. norrt relii dhat niice. overall quiite siian lurhh.=p but fun at tiimes.

walk all the wayy from dhere tuh marina square and to a place call dunnoe wadd bridge andd hadd foto takinqqs dhere. iit was windyy but hot too..

went backk tuh marina square by WALKING agaiin and eat. dhen awhiile, ii went home to woodlands. in the MRT, got thiis uncle came andd standd besiide me andd talk to me. hthe weirdd thing iis he noe how old ii am. exactly 15.haahaa. but iit was disgusting. staredd at me likke pervert. dhen keep talkinqq sayy wad: 12 yrs old gurl kena spike pills iin theiir drinks andd all sorrt. jus listen tuh hiim tok crapp andd nodd my head. haiiyo.dhen got one seat, he ask me siit downn. dunn thiink ii am stupiidd, iif siit down, confirm will see myy insiide. ii have a braiin okayys??!!! dhen ii toldd the uncle no and ask hiim to siit. he sayy cannort as he had cuts on his leg cannot siit. the worse thing iis he even pull up hiis pants and show me the cut. GOSH. yoo noe how disgusting?? dhen got this chinese guy keep lookinqq at me. yaa.he ask me tuh stand over to his side. dhen ii went over. thnks to him.=) but at that tyiime ii was just thinkinqq bout shahrul. but reli, if one day ii see him again, ii relii wanna thnks hiim for gettingg riid of that uncle. the chinese guy got down at Ang Mo Kio. the uncle was still smlinqq at me, andd ii got down at admiralty.

when down at control station, chengyuan call. dhen he say he is able tuh send me home. dhen ii went to the bus stop dhere andd he took me home iin hiis car.=) well, thnks cheng yuan.. ii no niid take bus home. or norrt veryy late liiao.=P

ytrd and todayy whole dayy nvrr msg shahrul. haiis. but ii love hiim even thou he dunn like me.
on the way to filminq, shiqi gorrt tell me that waiit iis waiit, let time prove everything. but life carrys on. when he is your mr right, you two will be back together. but bcuz he is not, that's why you will break as you are meeting your real mr right. she oso say, god made our fate. who are we with are oledi fatedd tuh be. =) well, iit iis kinda riight. thnks shiqi. but ii relii still wanna waiit for him.

hadd a dreamm last niite. dreamt that shahrul called me andd sayy sorryy. ii was havingg lesson at that tiime so couldn't ask whyy. so iinn the dream ii told hiim ii'll meet hiim behiind his class. but ii stiill dunnoe whyy he sayy sorryy. wadd does the dream tells?? ii am eagerr to know.
sorry bcuz he likedd another gurl?
sorry bcuz he hadd made me upset andd wanna patchh backk???
hope iis the 2nd one,. =xx
ii ratherr norrt tuh wake up as ii can see hiim. even thou iin myy dreams.
][ honestly, before sleepinq ytrd, ii keep sayiinqq hiis name so that ii can slp.][
dreams give us hints. hope that the dream ii made iis a good one.
pray that he wun't findd another gurl, but after hiis N level, ii can still be wiith hiim. =)

II WAIIT.trulyy waiit for him.=))

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
7:43 PM

national anthem that tyiime was so happy. myy headd keep turnn tuh my left diagonal siide as iit will be directinqq facinqq hiim. thou can't be tuhgetherr, ii feel gladd seeinqq hiim lerhh. =)

physics periodd dhat tyime, ii suddenlyy thiink boutt hiim damn muchh. sadds. ayuniie msgedd hiim andd askk hiim tuh come talk tuh me. ii was paiisehh andd myy heartt beat so fast like LRT.
dhen he andd some frens walk pass our class andd the feeliinqq when ii saw hiim was terrible. wat kindd of feelinqq ii dunno lurhh.dhen went to com lab tuh do science survey.

aftrr schh, ayunie and lynette went tuh findd hiim at hiis class. my harrt iis liike dropiinqq out,
but iin the end, he say he dun like me liiao. ii agree tuh hiis desicion anyywayy. but ii wun giive up.tiime prove EVERYTHING.inculde love.=)

aftr that went for audition. met lynette at vista and then we too cab down. talk tuh the taxi uncle alorrt. he was kindd and sociable. not liike some uncles that giive us faces. haahaa.

reachh city hall dhen waiit for jess and hwee fang. dhen met they two lerh we went to eat cake at cartel cafe. hweefang nvr eat. so skinyy liiao still nvr eat. dhen we waiitedd for crystalle, hanwei and jun cai. dhey so long dhen come.

took bus down to oxley road. dhen pass by liang court, and that was the place eric used to work.heex.reachh dhere, the place liike so ulu. scaredd scaredd. went iin, iit was air conditionedd. cool. straight away head tuh the toilet.haahaa. the toilet was cool man, still got paintings derh lurhh. so artistic.. =p.

ii and hweefang went iin for the audition fiirst, folo by jess and lynette. for jess and lynette and the othe girl, ii be their opposiite characters. funn and niice.

wel, hope we all get a chance tuh get iin. love~

ii waiit till yoo come backk. all ii nedd and love iis yoo.

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
8:09 PM

upload wadd we took todayy @ sentosa.
all tuhgetherr took 54 pics.
uploadiinqq the niicer ones. =P

handle love wiith care,
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hopinqq thiis dayy wouldd come againn. ='(

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
10:02 PM

todayy went sentosa for maths trail.
siiann... at there playy nvr do workk.haahaa/
took lorrts of photo..=p zii liian/
photo uploadd laterr.

luckkyy todayy not iin schh.
so nvrr see hiim.
otherrwiise,, will cryy derh.

well, ii toldd mr heng that duriinqq parents meeting,dun twll mummyy bout hiim andd me.
ii dun wan hiim tuh get iinto trouble or me oso as mummy dunn like me wiith a malayy.
even though he iis a malay,,
but ii still love hiim alorrt. let tiime heal myy pains awayy.
but ii still waiit for hiim. no matter how long. =D
ppl sayy ii stupiidd, sayy ii cann fiindd a new one, better dhan hiim.
but to me, he is near tuh perfect.
myy harrt onlyy want tuh go tuh hiim. haahaa.

lyfe iis damn boriing. tmrr goiing to oxley road dhere for audition.
saii lurhh. dun even noe the place well.
so aftr sch straight away rush home and get change.
gd luckk tuh me bahhs.

thiinkiinqq, duriing his bdayy shld ii buy hiim anyythinqq?
okayy. thiink fiirst lurhh.=) MOST PROBABALY.

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
3:28 PM

well, ii guess ii am okayy lerhh.
waiitiingg is a matterr.
jess iis ryte. ii must learn tuh draw a liine between studiies andd relationshiip.
thnks jess.=)

well, ii guess iit iis pointless byy cutting myselff,
ii am the one feeliinqq the paiin.
might as well ii stayy happy and come backk tuh normal.
haahaa. stayy home rot.

crystalle oso nvr go sch.3 dayys liiao. nottii.. dhen she and hanweii keep askinqq me go out wiith juncaii.
at that tyiime ii don't even habb the mood.
mummie ask me tuh some counting of bills for herr.
siiann.. ii toldd stalle that ii don't want tuh go iin a relationnshiip
it iis hurting enuff.
][ii tiink onlyy he can heal myy hart.=xx][

at nite, a guy call. ii thot was who sheyy.
cheyy. it was a guy by the name of keith.
he hadd hiis ownn companyy derh.
dhen he say thiis fri gorrt audition for channel U..
he ask me whether ii wan go anort.
haahaaa.. ii am goiingg. =)

fail my chem andd geog.
shit lars.
ii must studdy harrd liiao..
cannot continue liidat
otherwise scaredd nxt yr retaiin.

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
9:44 PM

nvr go skool.
foundd DEAD at home.
dunn wiishh tuh see hiim..

iif these cuts hurrts., wadd ii feel iinsiide iis miiliion tiimes more paiinful than tiis.

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
9:47 AM

dun wan see hiim he keep appeariingg.
see hiim ii feel like cryiing..
listen songs oso thiink of hiim..
lost hiim oledi dhen noe how much ii love hiim.
so siian iin class and cut myselff.
prevent myyself from swollen eyes buy putting eyeliners.
smille to act as iif ii am happy and fiine.
wann tuh stabb myselff jus tuh let my heart beat stop.
stop bcuz of hiim.. dunnwanna thiink of hiim..
but he jus can't get off myy miindd.
wad glue hadd been put on to stuck hiim onto myy miindd.

wiiliing tuh waiit...

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
3:50 PM

I ended wiith tears.
well, mostly iis wadd ii caused thiis tuh happenn.
in sch SUPER mooddy. feel likke dyiing and crying out LOUDD.
score badly... real badd.

english- 27/50
chinese- 89/160
biology- 47/100
emaths- 77/100
amaths- 54/100

RACHEL.. haiiss.
fiirst recess ii was damn sadd.
after 2nd recess was englishh. diin went for class.
stayy iin the toilet and cryy and cryy.
ii feel stupidd. well, ii learn tuh let go.
he iis a nice guy. ii shld not cling onto hiim.
let iit be RACHEL.

RACHEL,<--- u sux.
GO and die and look at the mirror wiith the swollen eyes yoo habb.
yoo look uglyy. please larhh.
yoo habb tuh move on..

ii noee ii hadd tuh move on.
but,, ii relii love hiim.
iis that infactuation or love?

cryy cryy cry
all yoo noe iis that,,
STUPIDD.

ii guess ii waiit.
waiit till he say he like miie.
WATEVER/

uploadd some photos...

huisi.me.hweefang jie.henghui

huisi & miie

hweefang jiie and miie, ii love herr<33

thiis iis wadd ii do todayy.cry out LOUD

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
3:34 PM

woohooo... todayy went tuh RP for TCP audition.
haahaa. nervous. wake up at 9am,
went tuh CWP tuh meet hweefang jiie, shijing and heng hui.
dhen oso wiith 2 guys, marcus and xiao ben. another gurl-hui si.
walk all the way frm CWP to RP...

rehearse frm 11am to 1-2pm...
dhen myy turnn... scaredd.
dhen gorrt one of the "oldest" judges ask me what iis my waiist.
ii stun lurhh... dhen theyy sayy he iis channel U producer.
dhen ii sayy my waist and numberr, he say he will contact me.

resulst announce andd ii gorrt the highest score.
feel contented. happy...
iit is jus like a dream for me.

for hweefang jiie,shijing and heng hui,
yoo gurls diid pretty well. =)
ii love yoo.

veryy tiredd. want to go slp lerhh.
tata

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
4:51 PM

tmrr auditiion liiao.. hmmm.. NERVOUS**

siian siia. he* whole dayy nvr msgg or call miie/
everythiinq change aftr we steadd. haiis.
FCUKiinqq feeliing of mine.

so borredd. went out andd bought some 2 tops and 1 bottom. haahaa.
no moneyy liiao. summore go buy 1 nike waterbottle for meii.
siia larhh.. quiite expensive for 1 stupidd waterbottle.
aiyyaa.but lonqq tyiime nvr buyy thinqqs for her liiao.
heex. at sportslink saw someone. ermm..
norrt ii want tuh sayy. but...
iit iis quiite disgustinqq lurhh.
liike ii veryy noe hiim.
EEeeeeewwwww,,,,
still call miie by whistliinqq. so buay hiao bai.
to me, he is just an asshole. FLIRT. humji summore.
a CON??? heex.
A relationship liiar.bastadd.
haahaaa/ myy hatredd for hiim is damn deep.
the way he treatedd hiis GF. the wayy he bastard his GF,
haiiss.. just pityy hiis GF niia. =D

exerciise just noww.. funn.haahaa.but whole bodyy paiin norr.

must practise scripts.
ornort juncai dun let me slp. =Xx

II FEEL LIKE BREAK UP.. ii am sufferiinqq iin tiis relationshiipp. =(
help me please. help me get OUT.
iis iit that onlyy hiim* cann do so?
iif that's iis,
where iis he*?

thx all the sweetiies andd myy guys who at dhere jiia you miie.
love all of yoo.

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
6:37 PM

morning.
keke. he* paiid hiis* fon bill liiao.
but, ii n hiim* are norrt reli dhat happyy.
he* saiid thiis final yrr he* iis veryy stress.
bcuz of miie?? iif that iis so,
ii can owaes let hiim* stop this relationshiip.
cuzz ii noe ii am owaes the problemm.
ii understandd.thiis yrr hiis* N level.
ii shldd less disturbb hiim*.
let everythinqq be as it, SAD**.

siian arhhs..
exams over liiao so wadd??
mummyy don let me go out.
HELL.. stayy home and cleann shiit mehss?
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

boriingg. ii guess we won't be talkiing dhat muchh liiao.
ppl sayy when a couple talk less, they miiss eachh othrr more.
yaa. for me, iit diid.][abiit][ but hiim*??
ii dunnoe??? hmm...

todayy no schh. marking dayy.
BORING ahh at home..

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
9:58 AM

yoo cann see how boriinqq am ii.. hmm... 1 day post 2 blogg.
well, ii hate lyfe relii.
iit all startedd thiis yrr. ii am tiiredd of iit.
liife is a alive torturiingg jobb.
ate 2 hersheys in 1 tyiime. FAT liiao.
tmrr dunnoe mummyy let me out norrt.
cuz dhat tyiime nvr studyy went out playy
dhen kena scolded byy her.. siian...
cuz actuallyy crystalle gorrt sayy we go bedok see JunCai do hiis CSO.
AHGRRR..
nthh tuh tok tuh hiim**
where he iis now ii oso no iidea./
yaa. wadevaa. ii waiit, you don come.
ii don waiit you will say thiis and dhatt.
CRAPS*

listeniin tuh thiis song : hao xin hao bao.
relii make me thiink of eriic.
wanna cryy. smiile? weiirdd feeliings developed.
ii dun sayy that ii still have feeliings for hiim.
part of my memoriies.songg.

ii ask myyself,
ii andd hiim* compatible anorrt?
iis there anyything miisiing??
we could be veryy close for now,
a dayy laterr, we liike strangers.
wad kindd of fcukiing relatiionshiip thiis iis??
or ii am just beiing stubbornn????
well, ii sometyiime feel liike one biig fcuk.
walk round and round giiviing andd throwiing myy temper.
do we need a stop for thiis???
ii noe yoo diid sayy thiis iis onlyy miid-yrr,
wad iif ur n level comes?

FOR GOD SAKE, even iif reli yoo haviing ur n level,
you can't be studyiing for 12hrs and slping for 12hrs ryte??
not sayingg anyythiing.
just don wiish tuh quarrel or even tuh think bout yoo,,
I AM NOT HAPPY AT ALL.

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
2:54 PM

EXAM finishh lerhh. yeappiie!!!

ermm.. 3 more dayys tuh the audition.. =)

Last paperr biio,, okkayy lahh.
cuzz ms judiith gorrt giif us before.

ii am damn angryy... ii after schh was 10.15am..
he** ended at 11am... ii waiitedd forr hiim**.
dhen he come msgg me tell me tuh go hme fiirst. wtf..
ii told hiim** ii had been waiitingg..
hhe jus sayy: sorry. ii diin noe.
FCUK.. ii jus toldd hiim* ytrd.
FINE. DON'T EVER ASK ME TO WAIT!

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
12:03 PM

4 more dayys.
4 more dayys tuh the mediiacorpp audiitiion. heex.
scaredd and nervous.. hmm..
jiia youu.!!

1 more miserable day.
biologyy last paper!!!
tmrr just jiia you!!!
but after exams, worry iis the fiirst feeliing.
worry bout results..
haiis. HELL.

ii and hiim* okayy liiao.
hmmm.. LOVE LOVE LOVE hiim.. heex.
love = happiness??

haiis... ii worry when myy results norrt good,
Mr Heng will tell mum bout me and hiim**.
iif reli go tell, ii sure diie liiao.
haiishh.. Y AHRHH... BLrrrr

PRAYY HARDD THAT GOD HELP.(BUDDHISM)=Xx

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
1:35 PM

DYIING OF TIIREDDNESS.
DYIING OF UNHAPPIINESS.
DYIING OF SADNESS.
DYIING BCUZ STRESS.

FEEL LIIKE CRYIING.

mathhs paperr ii sure faiil liiao.
aftrr schh, adam came and teachh me chemistryy.
dinn't learnn muchh but still managedd tuh learnn somethingg.
saww hiim* wiif giirls. =( wadd cann ii doo??
WADEVA! numbb.
love iis liike no love.
see yoo ii liike nvrr see yoo.
saw eachh other, a smiile iis not shown.
talk tuh eachh other iis likke 2 corpse talkiingg.
feel liike breakiinqq.
ii can't standd.
4 dayss!!!
nvr meet eyes to eyes
HELL..
ii ratherr everyythiing endd dhann cryy everyy moments.
wadd have ii doneE??

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
7:21 PM

ii feel terriblyy upset.

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
7:31 PM

tmrr physic and e maths exam. physic ii am going tuh diie liiao.

AHHHH... ii am lost lurhh.. can't even concentrate when studyiingg.

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unpredictable love
11:04 AM

mum called and say niicole iin singapore le. so nvr went swiiming. stupiid kor. slp slp slp...blahh,,

went tuh the euro fun faiir and saw quek hong... so paiisehh, haahaa.iit iis suchh a pityy tat we nvr playy the vortex..hmm.. next tyiime bahh. reachh home bout 10plus. so tiiredd dhen went tuh slp.

he* nvrr corr me the whole dayy, dunnoe wadd he* iis doiing.. shagg siia.

lame ppl do thiis.

went dhere and hadd funn, =)

When going euro fun faiir.

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unpredictable love
1:13 PM