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rAcHeL sux!!!
dhat's miie alrytes.?
readdinqq bout the last few months post, andd how iie wiish tyiime would turnn bacckk.

iie guess iie diin let hiim* go..
iie guess iie stiill harrt hiim*.
iie diin mean to hurt anyyone.
iie onlyy noe how to act brave on the outside,
but wheneverr iie see hiim*, iie relii feel soft.
iie can't expect muchh thing to happenn..

iie stupidly askk myyselff, "do iie still harrt hiim*.??"
iie myyself oso can't answerr.
he* treatedd miie veryy well last tyiime,
andd iie diin go notice or EVEN take a little tyime to figure out.
iie took ALL hiis* love forhh grantedd. asshole chel

iie dunnoe how to tell juncai..
iie dunnoe wadd to sayy.. PRETEND**
how iie wiish iie nvrr hadd the thot of beingg backk wiif eric that tyiime.
how iie wiish he* iis still by myy side.
the feeliing iis just badd without hiim*..

can he* still hear miie sayyinqq :"iie love uue.??"
iie noe he* hadd let go orff this relationshiip,
he* sees nothingg iin iit anyymore.
he* feel fuck up wiith me thiis kiind orff gurl.
a gurl who dunnoe how to treasure andd cherishh.

whyy waddeva somebody orr someone do something,
iie kiinda remindd orff hiim*.?
am iie too iinto hiim* or wadd.??

last tyiime, diid he* took iit as a revenge,?
or he* just feel happy iif ii were to cryy overr hiim* agaiin.

MY attitude SUX.! giivinqq myy attitude to juncaii,
he doesn't deserve iit, well, iie have no rights to do iit too..

sheddinqq tears everyy night,
RACHEL SUX! ][ iie wiishh he* could call miie one dayy][

❥爱你无要求;
unpredictable love
6:14 PM

went to AMK hub to do myy ezlink. dearr peii miie alongg. after that went to watch dead silence. okok larhhx the show. watchh till quite late dhen went home. bought another 3 tickets for the show 881 at 10pm. woahh the fiiliing was almost full. but ah tek, renee andd miie managed to get a "better" seat.=) siiann.. someone bday nearingg, confused on wad to buyy.. =))

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unpredictable love
10:14 AM

siiann.. got send backk home forhh myy hair colorr.
actually today oso dun feel like comingg school, cuz so tiredd.
the main periods were chemistry buddhen mr heng nvr come, so iie guess iie lose nth important todayy. =>
wahh~~ happy. home now.
maybe meetingg weilong korr laterr. =)

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unpredictable love
9:39 AM

1 more month to END OF YEAR.. yeahh should pull up my socks by noww..
sadd that iie diin do well forhh myy common test2 even thou iie put lortts of efforts inside.
humanities iie scoredd-72/100
biology-14/20 (FAIL)
chemistry-6/15 (FAIL)
physics-18/34( (pass by only 1 mark)
chinese-47/80
e maths-29/40
a maths-6/34(FAIL)

quiite depressed noww. tryiinqq tuh relax andd calm myself down but iit seems helpless at all.
guys, thnks forhh encouragingg miie to work hard andd helpp miie iin my studiies. =)

anyywayy, sometimes iie fiind people quiite childishh.. uue noe those "dogs".!!
best that they are GONE afterr their n lvls. =>

iis reliie iin a relationship affectinqq myy results andd studiies.?? haiiss.. aiminqq to scare 4 As iin myy report this yrr. wanna score A iin phyics, e maths, a maths and chemistry..

smiile.. iie noe there iis 4 groups of people surroundiinqq miie always and forever- family, friends boyfren and dearest GOD. =>

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5:07 PM

people like talkinqq back. let dhemm. iie care.? NOPE.
iie got myy guyy to love, andd iie wiill.
gave elnaa a crown rubber band andd a handphone accessoriies.=)
niice.. love love hiim

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unpredictable love
4:17 PM

dear andd miie 1 month lo. heehee. lovess hiim manyy manyy,

thou cannot peii hiim muchh.. studyinqq hardd forhh common test. when holidayys dhen peii hiim more. =)

cut myy haiir andd iis super short and uglyy. iie regretted. add colors on myy haiir where iit doesn't match too.. BORINGG.. wanna wiith hiim forreverr. muackks dear. uue rre MINE.=P

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8:20 PM

duunoe wadd happenn.. ytrdd wake up not feeliinqq well. feeliinqq itchyy all overr.. went to see doctor at CWP- raffles medical dhere. doctor say maybe allergy or insect bites.andd iit started spreadinqq myy whole bodyy.. went forhh an injectionn andd feel muchh betterr. doctorr sayy iif the jab doesn't work, must be send to the hospital.that freak me OUT.

the injection make me feel sleepyy andd went bedd earlyy.. haiishh.. that's all.. unluckyy dayy,

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4:00 PM

dance performance was okayy.. but iie diid a huge mistake byy laughiinqq on the stage.. iie should habb been serious. heehee.

actually todayy nothinqq bahh.. happyy that no niid go school till nxt week.. but iit will be the start orff the common test week liiao.. tiredd..

ourr make up SUX.. not onliie iie sayy.. people COMMENT-edd. kwok hwee was one orff dhemm.. haiiyo. iit wiil l SOPIL myy face usingg those CHEAP makeups.

a big applause forrhh jessiica baobeii.. uue hurt ur legs 2 days ago, yet uue still dance.. =) happy dayy.!!

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12:31 PM

quiite tiredd todayy, dunnoe whyy.. slept earlyy last niite, but still.. DOZE off iin class. iit was LCD-Contact Time periiods, iie sleep, yet mr heng nvr woke me up.=P guess iie am relii lack of slpiinqq. actually,past few nites iie was having insomnia.

after school,went forhh dance practice. iit was okayy,, but because the some seniors (exclude beeqi,sin le && me) scolded dhem, some cryy.. haiiyo.. dance performance is tmrr,, so we scold just to let uue all noe the urgencyy.. we diin wan to also.. but.. iie hope dhey wiill tryy their BEST tomolo. good luckk..

Briana is CUTE.!! iie love herr.. herr voiice was sweet too.. heehee. muchh muchh love herr.heehee.=P... Jacqueline is sweet also.. love both orff dhemm.. love myy qingren-jesslyn..
uue all rre the BEST...

iie am reliie happy wiith wadd ii've have now. uue guys rre relii greatt.. =)

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8:56 PM

todayy wake up veryy earlyy to go school forhh the speech day rehearsal.met ayuniie at interchange at 7.15am.. went take 901 to school. practice arndd the computer labb andd playy forhh a whiile..tiredd..

honestly, some sec 1(s) are haviinqq attitude problemms.(yeahh.. iie admiit iie was liidat last tyiime).. but went someone tell uue nicely, uue could have just listen and LESS complaints.!! the way we execute our dance totally suckx.!! damn.. but some sec 1(s) were sweet to miie.=) lovess.!!

finishh andd we went to have ourr lunchh at Mc Donald's wiith " Jessica, Ayunie, Shu Jie, Brenda && Sin Le." heehee. eat ALORT!! dhen the left over curry sauce all dhat we MIX.. andd playy games wiith dhatt,, the forfit was eat the fries wiith the "new" sauce we made.brenda so poor thinqq, eat the most. laugh liike freak liidatt.. hehee.jess went off earlier cuz she going somewhere,.. heehee.lovess jess-she iis myy baobeii!!! shu jie iis myy boiifrenn.=) heehee.muackkx to uue two.=)

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2:42 PM

whyy do uue have to liie to miie.? sorryy, iie diin make uue liike thiis or wadd, iis uue urselff startedd iit. iie diin blame uue..,iie blamiinqq myselff forhh beiinqq a dummiie for the past few months dhat actuallyy iie am lovinqq a LIAR.? myy liife iis iin a total MESS! iie flunked most orff myy studiies ryte now, forhh dunnoe wadd reasons. andd iie left 2 or less months to cover up wadd iie niid to learn.iie am lackinqq behindd otherrs.

people iin myy liife which iie need to thnks when iie needed them, otherwise,iie will be iin myy coffin.:
juncai-forhh beiinqq dhere when iie am down. uue pull miie UP when iie needed someone to talk
&& thnks jessica, uue listen to myy problems andd givinqq miie advice, iie love uue lorrts andd do takkaiire orff urselff. =)
thnks jocelyn jiie-uue are the greatest!! forhh the clothes uue bought forhh miie andd givinqq miie a shoulderr to lennd on too.
weilong korr-waddeverr iie wan uue gave miie to ur best dhat uue cann do.iie noe sometimes iie mayy be harsh iin talkinqq to uue, but uue were still dhere hearinqq myy crappy stuff andd cooliinqq miie downn.
jacklyn, uue were dhere when iie needed uue too.. =)

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5:24 PM